Well, actually I can think of a zillion things I'd rather have but I was lucky enough to get one of these today.
Lucky you might think is a strange word. You'd probably be right.
But let me try and explain!
I'll start at the beginning. In 2006 I decided I wanted to write Mills and Boon category romance. I read as many as I could get my hands on and fell in love with them. I joined RWA Australia and fell in love with the brilliant people that are also members. I've made so many really good friends through my writing. In 2008, I came runner-up in the Mills & Boon Feel The Heat contest and got to work with and submit directly to an editor. Since subbing my first story, I've had two full requests, revisions and never a form R.
I've worked as hard as I could in between having two babies and working a part time job. I've held onto the dream...
I've consistently failed in getting good internal conflict on the page. I've done a darn good job of making my stories contrived - even though I'm still struggling to see this myself. I've thought that I've come up with original story lines and likeable characters but I keep being told that I'm rehasing plot points I've already read. I HONESTLY don't see this and I figure if I can't work out where I'm going wrong, then how the hell am I gonna get it right.
This business isn't easy and only the persistent make it. I'm not feeling very persistent at the moment, I'm bawling my eyes out in fact. Hey,... see... I can do emotional! The worst thing about this R is that I've been working with an editor for almost two years now and today, she sent me back to the slush pile. That kicks!
But if there's one thing an R makes me realise, it's what I do have in life. I'm so damn blessed in all the other areas of my life that who am I to spend too much time wallowing on something like this.
I have a roof over my head.
My family are healthy and happy.
I have a loving, caring, hard-working and devoted husband.
I have three adorable but cheeky healthy boys.
I have a mother who would do absolutely anything for me and my family.
I have friends. Good ones.
I have food in my fridge and clean water coming out of my tap.
If I want something, I can generally buy it.
So I want to take this time to thank God for the good things in my life and to focus on what matters.
I'm coming into a really busy time. I don't know what this means for my writing or where I'm going to go after this latest R, but I want to thank you all who read my blog for always being so supportive and fantastic.
I want to wish you all a fantastic Christmas and a very happy 2011.